September 29, 2010

Pushing my Buttons


It's EASY to ♥ LOVE ♥ our daughter - even before we have met her or seen her!
It's EASY to be EXCITED to watch God's hand in ALL of this!
It's EASY to THINK of someone else calling me MOMMY.
It's EASY to IMAGINE what bringing her home is going to feel like.
It's EASY to THINK about her everyday.
It's EASY to WONDER about her...


It's going to be EASY to tuck her in bed, read her stories, fix her hair, smother her with kisses and hugs, help her learn to tie her shoes, learn her 1 2 3's and A B C's, paint her nails, wipe away her tears, cuddle, snuggle, laugh together, play together, sing to her, teach her all about JESUS, plan play dates for her....  


 
It's HARD to wait to see her beautiful face and hold her in our arms...
It's HARD to IMAGINE what her life was like & the circumstances that led her to our FAMILY.
It's HARD to THINK of the person she would've called Mommy & how much she is going to MISS her.
It's HARD to grasp the CHANGES she'll be going through - New family, Country, Language, Food...
It's HARD to think about the other children that she shared a room with or slept next to - who still need someone to  ♥ LOVE ♥ them, a HOME, and a FAMILY.
It's going to be HARD to help her work through her feelings of LOSS...

  

Oh SURE the PANIC button has been pushed! :)
I am scared of the unknown.
I'm scared I won't know how to comfort her or bond with her.
I'm scared for change.


We are NOT adopting because we think it is going to be EASY. We are adopting because we were CALLED (I have to say, I was skeptical about this word and the meaning of it - but, I have come to understand it very well thanks to Proverbs 24:12 - God KNOWS what HE has put on OUR  ♥ HEARTS ♥ and HE is holding US responsible to ACT!) to and we are MORE THAN EXCITED to be parents again!! We have more ♥ LOVE ♥ in our ♥ HEARTS ♥ to share - and most important we HAVE the HOLY SPIRIT living in us, guiding us, nudging us, encouraging us, teaching us, advising us, TELLING US to make this decision - JUMP in whole ♥ heartedly!!  Yep, Ultimately, it was our choice - WE CHOSE to listen and ACT.  We are EXCITED to have one (or two) less orphans (OUR DAUGHTER(s) HOME...with THIS FOREVER AND EVER FAMILY! 
And... we are SUPER thankful for the....

GOD BUTTON! :)

I will continue to PUSH this one EVERYDAY for the REST of my LIFE... Because goodness knows I am DESPERATE for HIM - LOST without HIM!










Isaiah 41:10
So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

Philippians 4:6-7
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

1 Peter 5:7
Give all your worries and cares to God, for he cares about you. 

Philippians 2:12-13
Therefore, my beloved, as you have always obeyed, so now, not only as in my presence but much more in my absence, work out your own salvation with fear and trembling, for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure.





6 comments:

  1. LOVING YOU DARCEEEEEE!!!! Through your journey of this amazing gift that you were called to answer. LOVE the song. LOVE your heart. LOVE Our God!!! Amen!!!

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  2. Great post!! So glad we have God fighting on our side...He is all over it!! :)

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  3. Great Post! Keep looking up! God will continue to guide you directly to your daughter. And He will fill you with His peace and love to overflowing. We are adopting too ~ I found your post most encouraging! Thanks! :o)

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  4. Oh, Darcee, I heart this post so much! I feel the exact same way! Love how you said it!!:)

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  5. this is such a great post! You said it so perfectly!!!!

    Let me know when you want to order some hair things! I would LOVE to make some for you! :) I can make anything on a baby headband too if you want to stock up on some for your little one coming soon! :P

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  6. I think you just summed up all the buttons I've pushed over the past year. The God button is my favorite too. Thank you so much for following God's plan and encouraging those of us doing the same!
    God' s blessings,
    Sarah :)

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Thank you for your kind words! ♥