June 22, 2011

First Mother

John 16:21
A woman, when she is in labor, has sorrow because her hour has come; but as soon as she has given birth to the child, she no longer remembers the anguish, for joy that a human being has been born into the world
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Thoughts of our little 'M's' birthmother - her FIRST mother flood our thoughts today - as she plans to travel from a very small, poverty stricken village about a four - six hour drive from Addis Ababa to appear in court... We know that she is ill and is probably struggling to make this trip. We are guessing that her body is weak and she probably has no money for transportation.  

As I sit comfortably at home, I think about the thoughts going through her mind as she makes this long journey, the prayers she has said and the dreams she has for her child... I think about how much she is hurting and what a huge loss she feels - how her heart and mind are full of sorrow and thanksgiving at the same time. I think about how I would feel... and I fall to me knees and PRAY for this AMAZING woman - who gave birth to a beautiful little girl... that we will cherish and LOVE FOREVER and EVER!

Do not be afraid, for I am with you;
I will bring your children from the east and gather you from the west.
I will say to the north, `Give them up!' and to the south, `Do not hold them back.'
Bring my sons from afar and my daughters from the ends of the earth-- everyone who is called by my name, whom I created for my glory, whom I formed and made
--- Isaiah 43: 5-7 


I know that our little "M" will always wonder about her First Mother. I know that she will always miss her and LOVE her.  I hope and PRAY to learn more about her, her country, her dreams... anything about her so I can share with 'M'.  I hope to get a picture of her. I hope I can meet her to tell her how much I LOVE her and how much I already LOVE her little girl.

Today... I can't seem to keep the tears away... as I am imaging being in her shoes...
Tired
Sick
Weak
Lonely
Afraid
Scared
Lost
Confused
Heartache
joy
thankfulness
love

Dear Jesus, please be with M's first mother today, the woman who gave birth to a beautiful little girl... please protect her, watch over her, give her peace. Oh Lord help her hurting heart as I know she misses holding her little girl in her arms and kissing her sweet face, feeding her, taking care of her.... Please comfort her if she is in pain and help prepare her for the walk or the journey that she is making to Addis Ababa - let her know that you are near. Oh LORD THANK YOU for this wonderful woman. Thank you for her BEAUTIFUL life and her loving heart.  Thank you for connecting us forever through the miracle of a little life You created... a little girl she gave birth to, almost a year ago. In the name of Jesus Christ - I pray. Amen.


 
 Numbers 6:24-26
The Lord bless you and keep you; the Lord make His face shine upon you and be gracious to you; the Lord turn His face toward you and give you peace.
 
Psalm 139:13-18
You made all the delicate, inner parts of my body and knit me together in my mother's womb. Thank you for making me so wonderfully complex! Your workmanship is marvelous - how well I know it. You watched me as I was being formed in utter seclusion, as I was woven together in the dark of the womb. You saw me before I was born. Every day of my life was recorded in your book. Every moment was laid out before a single day had passed. How precious are your thoughts about me, O God. They cannot be numbered! I can't even count them; they outnumber the grains of sand! And when I wake up, you are still with me!
 

8 comments:

  1. Praying with you, Darcee. Prayers for you as well as your heart is heavy today. Love you!

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  2. Wow! Beautiful Darcee! Praying for M's first mother today.

    I LOVE the song on your blog. It is my favorite song and I listen to it all the time!!

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  3. I remember this day so well when we were adopting E... It's such a strange combination of excitement and tremendous grief. Praying for M's 1st mommy today... such an emotional time for you... praying for you too!!

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  4. This is beautiful Darc....praying for her, you, and M tonight!!!

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  5. I just cannot imagine the pain. You have our prayers!

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  6. I know that feeling well. Praying for you and M's first mama today.

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Thank you for your kind words! ♥